Day 48 - pictures

Day 48 - College

It's been a while since I posted but nothing major happened. Cerby got neutered two days ago, we went to the Zoo, I got my college books and well tomorrow the class officially start. I have this drive to do the classes all the time, just to make sure I finish all of them on time and avoid delays because of Melody. So I read one chapter yesterday and today I want to finish the rest. We will see how far I will get.

Cerby and Iceis have to be separated cause they can not play together until the stitches dissolve.

I will post again :)

Day 31 - Upset

I am really upset about the news I got from the doc. At first i wasn't concerned at all, but after reading online about this condition I do understand more and I am upset that I got it, upset that the pregnancy messed me up so much. I really feel like crying.

I have a split muscle under my belly button, it is called 'diastasis recti'. You can not repair by doing regular exercises because the two muscles were being held together by a not muscle and this tore, the only thing to make it like it was is sew it back together (Tummy tuck)

I can not do the regular sit ups I have to do different exercises. I have a lot of skin left after the pregnancy and this of course also won't go away. I am pissed!!!! I hate that as of right now. If I gain weight the fat and my organs will push to the outside and this could cause "hernia"?, lower back pain, and I am already not walking straight which could make it worse. So I will have to maintain my weight my whole life. Ok it is healthy but man I hate the fact that something is not right with my body. It was always perfect and now this. Makes me feel sick.

I will stop reading online about this and do these exercises. So annoyed.

Good thing is my moles are all ok.

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Day 29 - Twilight book

The last 3 days I was just reading whenever I had a chance to. I got the book from the library and finally found time to read, it is fascinating and I don't want to put it to the side, but of course I have to, there is Melody and the dogs and other things around the house I have to do.

Besides that everything is still the same here, no changes. It is still hot 110 F heat index or more, I stopped watering the grass since the last bill was $100, and it makes no sense cause the grass is getting green when I water it and during the day it is dying again. I am not mowing it, cause it will shock the grass according to an article I read.

Today I will hopefully get rid of the big TV in the garage and will be able to move the glass table and have space for our car in case there is a storm coming. The small TV will most likely go in Melody's room one day. I also got a code free DVD player so Melody can watch European DVDs.

I am potty training her and she is doing good, but we still have some work to do in that area :)

Things got a little more difficult when it comes to talking to Ricky, he is working all day and is cranky and tired so our conversations are short.

Until next time...

Day 25 - Time is flying

It was just Monday and now it's Friday evening, the time is really flying. I sent off the trunk and two packages, apparently it takes 4-5 days. The first one should arrive tomorrow or Sunday if they do deliver :)

Yesterday we went to a play date with Elena and her friends, it was really nice, Kids had fun we talked. :)I was home at 3 pm. Today had to run some errands before going to lunch with Nicole, yummy Chinese food. Tomorrow we will probably go swimming if everything works out :)

More important things: I got approved for financial aid!!! Yeah, I don't know exactly how much I will get but it says $2300 for a full time semester which is 12 credit hours, I have 8 credit hours. It will be around $1900 something :) I hope. I am really looking forward to this.

I will write in a few days again.

Day 22 - Hot and boring

Hot hot hot, 107F and heat index 120 F it's insane. They are telling us to stay inside or if we have to to drink a lot of water. Melody is taking a nap, so we are not outside.

I sent of the trunk yesterday 41lbs and $78.40. It was alright. Today i sent off the flat rate box $12.95, I am not done yet, I still have to get coffee and am waiting for the baby wipes so I can send them all in one box.

I got tine red ants (fire ants) in my veggie garden, they are all over my Cantaloupe, got attracted by the sweetness of the Cantaloupe. I was reading I should put some corn meal out they would eat it and it will then expand and blow them up :D But I didn't have corn meal only corn mix, so I still hope it will do its job.

Other then that nothing is going on. It is boring!!! I can't wait for the college classes to start.

I will make taco salad today, I got the idea from Tammy :)

Until next time.

Day 19 - Unbelievable

Wow and just shaking my head and I would love to tell someone, but maybe somebody will read this.

FSC 2-8 CAV is an unorganized group of people. My husband is at his FOB with only one pair of everything, because they didn't let them take all their stuff to the FOB and left the bags at the bigger camp. Now they got told the bags got lost somewhere. WTH, how can stuff like this even happen? Another higher ranking individual is tagging people and checking in at the FOB, people describing the area. I know most of the guys know where the army is but still.

Now that I left a comment on the companies FB side and he didn't like it, he deleted me. I 'liked' the FB page again, so he blocked me where I am not able to post on the wall anymore. And this is called support for the families???

Wow!!!

Please, make sure my husband and the good ones stays safe and sane. This is getting really ridiculous.

Day 18 - Melody's whining and tantrums

Today she was killing my nerves. We went to a few stores and it was in the morning, so she wasn't tired and she was still whining. She didn't want to take of the flip flops and the dress she was trying on, so it ended in crying every time. Which makes me so mad cause she doesn't have to cry and she is not listening when I want to explain it to her, she is refusing to listen, which makes it worse for her and my nerves.

At home the same thing, she was playing outside in the pool and later with the dogs. They came inside and she brought a stick with her, I am looking at her as she hits Iceis with the stick in her face with full force. WT heck, I was mad oh so mad and Iceis just closed her Iceis, I would have thought she would do something but she didn't. So Melody got some good spanking. Then outside again she is throwing stuff at Cerby, sitting on Iceis, literally and when I asked what is she doing and she has to get up she said: horsey. Please help someone help me(lol)

She doesn't feel like going to sleep either, just dragging it out more and more but not today. She was sleeping at 9:20 pm finally.

I have some time now for myself :) Until next time

Day 16

Like always I forget about this blog but I am back.

We have been busy :) I was painting Melody's room and it took me a while. I Painted the wall first and then made circles with the circle compass on the wall. Next thing was painting the circles, this was the longest part, since I had to slowly fill them out and make sure the edges were even.

One day Elena was here, next day, which was today we went to Belton to the Splash Park. It was really nice but I am so tired. The kids had alot of fun, we stayed 4 hours.

I forgot to mention the China Berry Tree. What an annoying tree. Since it was growing and growing, I decided one night I will take the little saw and see how far I will get. Well it got me pretty far, the only problem I had, I was unable to put the tree down to the ground, I was just too small. Next day I called Nicole, since she is way taller then me she was able to push the tree from behind and it fell nicely on the little white fence, breaking one pole, but that was ok. Now the tree is small and whenever it decides to grow again, I will just pull the tweaks down. :) Bye bye

Ricky is already in Iraq and I am sure on his way to his destination.

This one dude from his unit, made me mad, when I saw Ricky been tagged on FB that they just arrived in Iraq and the exact area. Then you have people talking about the location and stuff. I am not his friend and I was able to see all this, what if somebody will see it who shouldn't see it? I deleted the tag and disabled his option on FB. I also posted on one of the Units FB pages about the incident and not to my surprise my post was deleted and no comment on it. I know why, cause the person running the side is the same dude who tagged Ricky. I know his name but I won't post it here, it's a public blog.

How can they allow stupid stuff like that, isn't that OPSEC? What about google and the map view of all the areas in Iraq?

Makes me really mad.

Good night yall.

I love you Ricky and please stay safe. We miss you very much.

Day 7

We are doing pretty good no more sad moments like at the beginning.

I got a few things I would like to do and I need time to do them so that is keeping me busy.

I met a few friends in the last couple of days and we really enjoyed it.

I decided what wall designs I want to make for Melody's room, I just need some templates, tools and paint.

I want to weed eat in the back but it has been so hot, that I really didn't feel like doing that.

Tomorrow this guy will come by and leave the car here and I will give him a ride back.

I need to go to the PX and get the trunk, I will send it on the 15th of August.

Jusy showed me a new game, I got a show I am watching, August 29th college classes start, so yes I am pretty busy. My mind is going and going and there is no time for sadness and cries. I am of course thinking about Ricky 24/7 but I don't have enough time to think to the point where it makes me worried and sad.

Until then, let's wait for my next post.

2nd day

So far so ok, I did alot of cleaning and organizing, sometimes I had a few sad thoughts but it's ok.

Trying to cancel his phone line with AT&T but they didn't receive the fax yet, well it's not in the system yet and it can take up to 14 days. So as soon as they get it and cancel the phone line I have to call them and change my phone plan.

Mainly I am trying to stay busy.

My goals: Entertain Melody

Study for my two classes coming up in August

Hanging out with friends

My parents visiting in October

loosing some weight and staying in shape or should I say getting in shape

That is it

First day

Today was the day, I was pretty strong the whole time, until a day before, after coming home from the ER. It just hit me that he is leaving tomorrow. We had tears and talks and hoped it won't be too bad next day. It was a short night, I think I slept only 3 to 4 hours. We got ready and headed on post, Ricky got the weapon in the meantime I went to clothing and sales to get a weapon sling and it slowly was getting closer. After the manifest we had time for ourselves and we left at around 11 am , even though they stayed till past 12 pm which I found out later :( I would have stayed longer...

At home the expected happened and Melody was just giving me hugs. I am sure it will be hard for me whenever she will say Daddy. Like just now, and again. I have to get used to it, I hate the beginning of the deployment, it sucks ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!