Day 31 - Upset

I am really upset about the news I got from the doc. At first i wasn't concerned at all, but after reading online about this condition I do understand more and I am upset that I got it, upset that the pregnancy messed me up so much. I really feel like crying.

I have a split muscle under my belly button, it is called 'diastasis recti'. You can not repair by doing regular exercises because the two muscles were being held together by a not muscle and this tore, the only thing to make it like it was is sew it back together (Tummy tuck)

I can not do the regular sit ups I have to do different exercises. I have a lot of skin left after the pregnancy and this of course also won't go away. I am pissed!!!! I hate that as of right now. If I gain weight the fat and my organs will push to the outside and this could cause "hernia"?, lower back pain, and I am already not walking straight which could make it worse. So I will have to maintain my weight my whole life. Ok it is healthy but man I hate the fact that something is not right with my body. It was always perfect and now this. Makes me feel sick.

I will stop reading online about this and do these exercises. So annoyed.

Good thing is my moles are all ok.

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